I used to be really really good about keeping a journal. I have journals from my childhood, journals from my teenage years and even journals full of my college days. Somewhere along the way as I became an "adult" I let go of my resolve to keep a journal. Last night as I lay in bed pondering my day I wondered about why I wasn't as consistent about my efforts to keep a journal. I didn't have any really good reason except for that I felt like that over the past 2-3 years I had nothing really important to say except for recording one more time that I had just endured another failed relationship. Really, I felt like there wasn't anything else monumental or worth documenting happening in my life.
I know that is not true. I have lots of important things that happen to me daily. They are important because they show me, and those who might someday read my journals that the Lord does have a hand in my life. He blesses my life every day. In little, sometimes hard to find ways.
So, as of today I am committing once again to keep a journal and to record, in my very own handwriting and somewhat informal way, the things that happen to me on a daily basis that show the hand of the Lord in my life.
Keeping a journal can be difficult because it feels to me like I am sharing a piece of my soul, my thoughts, feelings, inspirations and desires with an unknown audience. Even if for now it is just a piece of paper I am recording on. I also know that by putting things down in writing it makes them more real, believable and helps me to define who I am and what is truly important to me. It shows me how I am becoming the Daughter of God that I need to, and want to be.
I regret that over the past years I haven't rememembered and acknowledged these blessings in the way that I should be. I probably won't be able to ever "make-up" what I lost by my lack of attention and willingness to record things in my journal. However, I can start now to remember and record these things.
I think that November is a great time to be thankful and remember and I love this message of President Eyrings. Such a touching reminder and example.
4 comments:
This is a really good message. Thanks for sharing.
xo -El
P.S. What I really want to say is too personal for a comment on a blog in open cyberspace. Just know you're not alone.
It's no coincidence that I just read this now. About an hour ago, I was thinking that I should start asking questions before I write in my journal, and even was thinking that I need to catch up with the journals I attempt to keep for my kids. Then I thought, "Who has the time?" But what an incredible blessing to see this - to realize the Lord's hand is daily in my life, but I just need to look for it. I consider this no small miracle that you shared this when you did, and that I read it when I did!
What a wonderful reminder! I too used to be very good at keeping a journal and have let that slide. Thank you for posting about this subject.
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My blog is my journal. I guess I shoudl stop counting it as that and really keep one.
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